Archive for April, 2007

i’m so furious!!!

Tuesday, April 17th, 2007

I know i’m working hard and all…
i dont want kudos, i dont want appraisals, neither do i want any damn body to highlight this thing!!! Kecoh!!!

people dont actually understand the situation of why i’m staying back all of these while and why is it when others stay back no one make a damn fuss bout it but when i, the one who has to do 2 or 3 persons’ work unguidedly has to stay back or even sleep over, must bising2???!!! especially bila kita sendiri never actually make a big fuss out of it!! i only make noise because i’m working without guidance!!!

it has come to an annoying point that the others are actually afraid of dragging me into their programs to the extend of what happen tadi!!!! and i know bcoz they r afraid the people on top will question them….

I’m really so damn pissed off with what happened in da board room tadi, more than of what happened last week.

apparently, board room isnt my place of luck.
sometimes i feel like i’m not appreciated here! damn all!!!!
buat baik salah, kalau buat salah…???

me, the aunty???

Sunday, April 15th, 2007

cant believe it!!

on a fine wednesday morning, at 6.00am my mom gave me a surprise wake up call, telling me my sis-in-law is already in maternity ward (2nd time already, the 1st time was 2 weeks ago where they attempt to induce to laBOUR BUT THEN, UPON SEEING THE apparatus, my sis-in-law had 2nd thoughts)…

I happen 2 have an important meeting that day so by 7 i was already at the office preparing all the needed documents, as the meeting supposedly starts at 9am. it was then, my sis-in-law actually smsed me telling that she’s already there but she felt like the lil boy will pop-out somewhere later in the evening, so she tell me to concerntrate on ma work, and drop by after work.

but then, by 8 my aunt called that telling that she’s showing some signs of giving birth so after apologizing to En. Nazim whom we here called pierre andre, i rushed to ampang puteri.

When i arrived, my uncle and aunt, my bro’s mom-in-law and my hampeh kakak and her hampeh husband were there… and typically, we treat the hospital as our house huhu… while my brother is already inside, smsing me the updates from there….

i do pity my brother, having had to work in terengganu and berulang ke kl every week…
Marriage, as i would say, is a hell of a commitment, so kalau financially not stable yet, please dont get urself entagled in it… banyak mulut nak suap

I was so damn tired, as i was hardly asleep the nite before preparing for the meeting that i was suppose to attend that time, so by 1 pm tu i was so sleepy, and time to opening dah 5cm, my bro in-law and my sis-n-law’s mmom went to perform zohor(went early), my aunt and uncle nak amik anak2 dari sek, leaving me and my sis benihd,.

before i knew it, i was already in dreamland till i heard some commotion, i woke up, to see my brother-in-law dah ayoyo… then only i know that bila baby dah keluar, my brother managed to go out of the labour room to get us, but my sis didnt wake me up she went in straight leaving me behind.when i woke up, those 2 yg pi solat tadi just arrived, and ;llike me, they missed the moment as the baby had to be put in the incubator.
during this time, i was so furious with my sis for leaving me behind, i mean, i actually leave my work and meeting just to end up missing the moment. terkilan sungguh. simpply because i was soundly asleep on the sofa….
but seconds later, i recieved a mms, a photo of my lil nephew… terus ilang segala marah….. looking at lil baby… lucky enuff i was at a corner that time because the tears of joy flew down my cheeks. that’s not common view.

so, happy enuff, i went back as pierre andre request me to come back…

i thought of going back after work, but these days, my working hours seems to  expand aggresively that on that day itself we stayed back till 12.30am..
i get to see my lil nephew 2 days later, on friday, after work (just this time i managed to go back early as we already managed to complete our TOR and costing and submitted to EPU, finally)… that time, i was so deeply moved to the lil fella, looking like his dad… so cute, so tender and so adorable…

and to see how the young parents handling the infant, i was amazed, kagum… if it is me… ntahla…

The following day, i came to kl again as they r going to ipoh for the mom to undergo the prohibition period (pantang)….
This time, i manage to carry the baby, although so scared as the lil fella is indeed so little… budak tu pun senyap je in my arms…

sadly i had to part with my lil nephew as all of them have to go back to ipoh already, so i went back to my second house, which is my aunt’s house…

hmmm….. i wont get to see the baby for nearly 2 months… :(

Durian??

Tuesday, April 10th, 2007

This something i took from a blog of one of my brother’s senior,

sila fahami…

      Adakah Kita Faham Rasa Durian? (aku pun tak paham)       

                          Atan ialah seorang pengkaji durian yang tersohor di dunia.

Dia
mengkaji pelbagai jenis durian di seantero dunia. Asal usul durian,
struktur dunia, bangsa pemakan durian, cara durian jatuh, bunyi durian
jatuh, bila durian jatuh, cara memakan durian, cara mengupas durian,
alatan yang digunakan, gelaran raja buah, harga durian, gred durian,
opportunity hasil durian , by-product durian, kegunaan kulit durian,
kolestrol dalam durian, warna durian, tinggi pokok durian dan segala
pasal durian n such

Dia mengkaji juga musuh2 durian, pencuri
durian, kebaikan durian, sumbangan durian, durian tak bermusim, cara
durian dijual, pesta buah durian, lawak durian, sejarah durian, asal
usul nama durian, durian tembaga, emas, kuprum, aluminium, platinum dan
macam2 lagi termasuk millennium.

Segala forum, ceramah, dia cuba
libatkan diri. Kertas kerja dan pendapat dibentangkan. Seminar di
hadiri dan diusahakan,segala buku sains, fakta sains mengenai durian
dia dah baca.
Journal-journal diterbitkan, interview oleh media dipenuhi dan berbagai2 lagi kegiatan berkenaan durian.

Dia juga sedang dalam usaha untuk menubuhkan Universiti Deghoyan (sebab dia orang Peghok Daghul Ghidzuan)
Namun disebabkan harga durian yang agak merosot dua tiga tahun kebelakangan ini, usaha itu agak lembab dan hampir terbengkalai.

Hasil
usaha gigih dan kecintaanya, dia juga mendapat anugerah Nobel Durian,
anugerah yang hanya ada satu di dunia ini, dan tidak akan ada duanya,
sebab takde orang pelik sangat macam dia ni.
Sebuah tugu berupa
separuh badannya terkeluar dari buah durian yang telah dikupas, telah
didirikan di dataran sebuah pecan kecil di Perak

Namun, sekarang ini, diberitakan bahawa, dia terlantar koma di sebuah hospital terkemuka di dunia.
Hanya kerana satu soalan dari budak darjah 4, Sekolah Kebangsaan Durian Sedap.

Soalannya berbunyi : Professor Doktor Atan, bagaimanakah rasa durian itu dan adakah doktor suka makan durian?

Tatkala
mendengar soalan itu, pucat lesi muka doktor. Jantung berdegup kencang,
nafas turun naik. Dia tak tahu menjawab soalan itu sebab sebenarnya dia
tak suka makan durian dan tak pernah menjamah durian. Dia juga tak
pernah menunggu durian jatuh, mengutipnya, mengupasnya dan memakannya
dengan tangan sendiri.

Maka, dalam masa kurang seminit, dia pun rebah, dan koma hingga ke hari ini.
Koma, mungkin kerana malu atau koma mungkin kerana Allah nak tunjuk, cakap byk2 tak guna..pi buat la…….

Sungguh menyedihkan, sungguh pathetic sekali certia Penerima Anugerah Nobel Durian ini.

Macam
tu jugaklah jadinya kita (naudzubillah) jika kita hanya baca, baca,
baca, bertanya, bertanya, bertanya, bercakap, bercakap dan bercakap
pasal ISLAM.

Kutuk sana, ulas sini, komen sini, caci sana, debat
sini, assume sana, assume sini. cakap pong pang, pong pang dan macam2
lagi. (Macam aku lah ni)

NAMUN, perkara paling pokok dalam ISLAM kita tak buat. Kerja utama bagi mereka yang MENGAKU ummat Nabi Muhammad SAW.

Kita tidak SUNGGUH2 berkorban pada jalan Allah, berdakwah dan menyampaikan secara istiqamah.
Kita tidak SUNGGUH2 beramal (without fail) dengan setiap yang kita tahu.
Dan
kadang2, walaupun kita dah tahu, sebab kita tak boleh nak amal, kita
carik pulak reason supaya kita tak payah amal, pandai2 nak ubah ISLAM
ikut selera..
Aku berkomen lagi……alahai…aku ni….

Kita tidak menunggu, mengutip, menatang, memperhalusi, menghurai, memahami, mengamalkan dan mengorbankan diri untuk ISLAM.

Sekarang dah ramai professor yang bukan ISLAM mengajar pendidikan ISLAM di universiti serata dunia.

Sebab tu ISLAM sekarang, ramai yang TAHU, tapi sedikit yang FAHAM
Dalam sedikit yang FAHAM, sedikit pulak yang AMAL,
Dalam sedikit yang AMAL, sedikit yang DAKWAH (ajak orang amal)
Maka, marilah berdakwah secara istiqamah..
Kerana dengan asbab berdakwah, Allah akan bagi hidayah (FAHAM) dan taufik (AMAL). Yan gtak terdapat di dalam buku2 atau kitab2.
InsyaAllah.

Bagaimana cara BERDAKWAH yang utama?
Yang Nabi SAW sendiri buat, suruh dan ajarkan secara spesifik.
Kalau boleh cariklah sendiri, supaya anda lebih FAHAM.
Aku tak nak orang kata bias, dek kerana kelemahan dan kekurangan diri aku sendiri.

Kita mengkaji – tetapi tidak mahu mengambil iktibar
Kita menimba ilmu – tetapi tidak mahu mengamalkan sepenuh daya dan bersungguh
Kita bermuzakarah – tetapi tak ikut adab dan diakhiri dengan berdebat menunjuk kepandaian
Kita pergi masjid – namun hanya pada hari jumaat
Kita pergi universiti – hanya untuk mendapatkan pekerjaan
Kita kenali tokoh ISLAM – hanya untuk syok baca sejarah keagungan ISLAM dan bebangga bahawa terernya orang2 ISLAM ni…
Kita dengar kuliah – lagi best kalau penuh dengan lawak dan mengata kelemahan orang
Kita beli CD ceramah – sebab kita takde masa sangat nak bagi masa untuk ISLAM
Kita baca blog pasal ISLAM – sebab kita nak amik mudah, short cut pasal ISLAM
dan macam2 lagi….bukan korang..aku la..baut benda2 gini…

Kita harus berkorban, agar dapat merasa nikmat ISLAM.
Korbankan
tidur , korbankan masa, korbankan kesenangan, korbankan keselesaan,
korbankan perasaan (disindir, dicemuh, dipulau, hilang kawan) korbankan
SEGALANYA untuk ISLAM

DAN KORBAN ITU KENA ISTIQAMAH, apa jua
benda kena istiqamah dan sentiasa berdoa kepada Allah agar ditunjukkan
jalan yang diredhai.
DAN DAKWAH itu adalah CABANG PENGORBANAN YANG PALING BESAR

…..

dah gila dah…

Thursday, April 5th, 2007

hmm.. unintentionally, all of my blogs only revolves around my hectic life at work.
somehow sometimes i feel the superiors aka bosses are made to make our working lives miserable aka a living hell.

i cant believe that i actually slept in the office once just to finish
up some paper work, simply to have it roughly checked more than a week
after that. nanti bila tak siap, bising, bila siap, nak tangguh…

but then again i love my job because my immediate boss is just great
and considerate and i have a nice group of colleagues here in the
office that really makes my day when everything seemed to be down and
hampeh.

at least kalau ada org tlg amikkan kerusi for u and kipaskan u bila u hangin with the VPs kira ok la tu :)